Another year passes, another moment in time.
Am I where I am supposed to be or has life taken yet another detour? I often catch myself thinking about this and wondering what the universe has in store for me next. I know I’ve made my fair share of mistakes, some big and some small. I’ve hurt people and I’ve been hurt by people. One thing I do know is that if I cannot change my thoughts soon I may not make another year.
I find this dark negative… thoughts and feelings slowly encompassing me and covering up All the light inside me. Taking the little joy I still have and removing any sense of calm.
Depression is an illness. It’s not something I can just feel better from. I truly wish I could. I hate feeling like this. I hate making others have to go through these dark places with me so I prefer to go alone now days. Close myself off to the world and just slip into my nightmare.
Feeling so helpless and truly useless. I know I’m not but again this feeling is not something I have control over.
Madness, sadness, solitude, alone, cold, blue.
What is next…